Time of My Life
Friday, 27 April 2007
The Hatcham Social Club

Do others go through their lives feeling like a stand-in who hasn’t read the script? And why? If sustaining a life that was not my own was sapping me, why did I systematically continue the life supports, like those hospitals who keep vegetable people alive with multimillion dollar machines and equipment and much energy? Where did I get the notion that being me was so horrible? That preventing that from happening was worth all my discomfort and ingenuity? And when did those abortions and miscarriages begin? Those self-inflicted knitting needles and coat hangers to arrest at all costs the growth of the foetus, that homunculus that wanted to be yet was considered too scandalous to see the light. Too scandalous for who? Who considered? The process must have started early because by the age of three I was already suffering from insomnia and nervous ticks, by six I was a nervous wreck and by nine I was no longer me and I had already perfected the technique of artful recreation.

But tonight I'm going to my kind of dancing with a great partner...

(last line from Dirty Dancing, music begins: "I've Had The Time of My Life")

photos: © Roberto Quagliata 2007